Dear Dad

Dear dad,

I think I am loosing me in the crowd, I am loosing me between thoughts and ideas, between people and what they want.

I am lost in my dreams.

How can I find a ground to stand on when everything is moving so fast and in various directions, actually in opposite directions!

I know I am probably one of the craziest girls on planet earth and sometimes I think I am a genius which in fact is only a proof that I am crazy! But I have no idea how I can cure that. Do you think that I can be cured?

To be honest with you daddy I do not want to be cured , I have spent all my life hating myself but now I was able to love me , every part of  me even the crazy parts , or actually especially the crazy parts of me .

I don`t know why  ppl insist on changing me, the insist of making me feel as a puppet hanged with threads in their hands .

Everything I say is always weird to everybody else.

I do not know if they are right or not, and I don`t care but what I am sure of is that I feel as if I am wearing a small dress while my size is large. I may look good form the outside but what is true is that I can`t even breathe or walk. I can`t be me and that hurts.