Dear dad

dear dad ,

as if I am trying to move a cement wall to reach a mirage ! the mirage never comes and the wall never moves ! I am so confused . sometimes I feel as if I am entering a war armed with the preparation for failure. I know GOD has better plans for me but I really wish that my dreams and plans are not that vivid in my mind , I just which that i don`t collapse with the vanishing of every dream.

 I which I was stronger. I which I was able to deal with hardships in better way can u help me with that ? ! how did u deal with things that stood in your face ? I guess u just knew what u really wanted and went after it and that gene dear i didn`t get from u !! among many other good genes unfortunately.